Friday, January 2, 2009

In Eight Years...

I will walk to the park for lunch, wearing a beautiful two piece gray skirt suit with my long brown hair pulled back in a bun. I'll have a yummy tuna salad sandwich and peaches to eat. There's three park benches, a couple sits at number one, four teenage boys sit at number two, and two women sit at number three; I will sit by two women.

As I look out to the playground area, I will see a few children playing. A redhead with the cutest pink pantsuit immediately catches my eye. She is sitting on the slide alone, watching to other children play, she looks like an outsider who so desperately wants to be in the inside"Awww soooo adorable"I say outloud, his mother who sits on my left replies "Thank you, she's so shy". A blonde baby boy comes to her like her knight in shining armor. To which the mother on the right says, "That's my little boy, always the charmer".

Us three start chatting for what seems like forever, I find out that they live in the next town from me, they talk about how hard it is to make friends with work and all, to which I agree to, by now I am a successful attorney working for the state under the district attorney. We make plans to see a movie when we're free, I am totally excited to have found these awesome ladies, until the dreeded question comes in.When they ask me where's my child.

Me: "I don't have any...."
Left Mother: "Oh"
Right Mother: "Do you want kids?"
Me: "I did .....I mean..... we can't"
(A confused look takes place on both mothers)
Me:"Well it was nice, I have to go back to work"

I cry silently all the way to the office......

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Hey Babybell!

9.15: Born at 9lbs, 1oz, 21.25 inches (90% all the way around)
9.21: 9lbs 1oz, 21 inches (hey did you get smaller..lol..)
10.14: 10lbs 3oz, 21.25
11.18: 11lbs 3oz, 21.5 inches hey shorty (50%, 60% and 75%)
1.18: 13lbs 4oz, 24.5 inches hey you're tall! (50%, 75%, 75%)

Pregnancy Timeline

1.7 : Positive Pregnancy Test (2 days late for period, approx. 16/17 DPO)
1.14: Beta reveals 12,943 HCG count (at approximately 23 DPO)
1.21: Perfect Measurements, Sweet Heartbeat One Baby Lives Here (59,594.2 HCG, 13.4 progesterone)
2.6: 8w4d perfect measurements again.... 180BPM.... sweet!! got a shytload of blood taken....
2.20: 10w4d, Colposcopy and Biopsy....saw baby through tummy scan. Mommy's big baby and a H/B of 173!!
2.27: Colopscopy is PERFECT!! my cervix is a go!! 199 days to go!
3.4: Baby beating so hard!! 12w2d end of first trimester O/B appointment!!
3.30: 16 weeks appointment, hearbeat of 157!
4.21: hb 151....everything is okay with the little LADY!!
4.27: BabyBell is measuring a whole week ahead, yep, our little lady is a big girl... heartbeat 151-158 =)
5.26: Glucose Testing & 24W1d appointment heartbeat of 153 and totally movin around for the doctor =) I <3 Babybell
6.23: 28w1d appointment, Babybell heartbeat in the 150-160 range, measurements at 29....
7.7: 30w1d appointment, Jayd'z sucha active little girl!! great measurements, great heartbeat, was told to start the initial process of finding a baby doctor and asked about childbirth classes
7.23: 32w3d appointment, heartrate in the 160's, measuring at 32 weeks (on target) but feel defeated because I'm so huge...lol
8.6: 34w3d appointment, measuring at 35 weeks heartbeat is regulated in the 130's, StrepB testing and cervix check (nothing going on down here yet)!
8.17: 36w appointment, heartbeat in the 140's,StrepB negative, bloodwork completed this day(1cm dialated, 50% effaced)
8.24: growth scan and 37w appointment, 6pounds 14 ounces =), (1cm dialated, 70& effaced), high blood pressure, 120/90 apparently Jayda likes living in mommy...lol and was playin all during the exam h/b 154
8.31: HB perfecto! 1cm/80% (argh) passed on bloodwork and Strep Test
9.8: 2.5 cm/80%... HB is ughhh ok? 120/82..(uh-oh) ummm doctor mentions that next appointment, we'll talk induction, I see a C-section in the future....
9.14: DUE DATE!! 190 lbs, Oh my!!! Blood pressure is 140/90 sent to hospital and was inducted I was having contractions!! (who knew)
9.15: Hey I'm a Mom =)

Pregnancy Gains!!

Prepregnancy Weight: 154
Doctor's Approvided Gain: 25-35lbs (179-189 lbs)

6w2d: 154 lbs
8w2d: 149 lbs
10w2d: 144 lbs
12w: 144 lbs
16w: 144 lbs
17w4d: 143.2 lbs (before any meals)
20w: 149 lbs
24w: 159 lbs (No more junk food for us...lol)
26w6d: 165 (uh-oh..... okay seriously this time no more junk food..lol)
28w1d: 165 (SUCCESS IS MINE!! lol)
30w1d: 171 (Blame it on the rice and beans..lol)
32w3d: 175 (but I look like I gained 30 lbs...lol)
34w3d: 179 (much less then I expected, that's for sure..lol)
36w: 180 (CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES...lol)
37w: 185 (hmmm....????)
38w: 184 (down!)
39w: 185 (up!)
40w: 190 (wtf)

Morning Sickness
6w3d - 7w6d: Moderate
8w - 14w5d: Severe
14w6d - 17w: Moderate
17w1d - present: Mild