Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I've been a bad blogger... sorry.

I've been a bad blogger...sorry.

For the blessing that is my daughter, I feel as thought I owe God more then ever. Our daughter is a miracle, that I really didn't believe that would come.

I realized that you can be so involved in your own "little world" that you can forget about the ones that love you the most, I am dedicating my time with my family and while that may mean missing sleep and changing the way I do things, I realize that life is too short and everyday is precious, If this is the last day on earth, I want it filled with forgiveness, kisses and love, I want to leave knowing that I was a good person and that my soul was clear....

I'm in school now =), no not for teaching. I feel that my purpose is to education, but in a new sense, I'll talk more about it in later months, but yes It's in the health care field and I am very excited.

That's it on my end... =)

Monday, June 15, 2009

Week 27

First off.... Caroline.... CONRADS!!! everyone go give Caroline some love ... well you know before she gets morning sickness =)

It's me, I'm still here, just been quiet, not too much has been going on.

The weight gain.... uh-oh.... but let's be honest i am ALL BELLY... I am on the higher end of the scale, but I always look alot less then my weight, if you saw me today you'd think I'm no more then 140... I carry weight AMAZINGLY....

I took a much needed break from studying this weekend to have our ONLY mini-vacation this weekend, awww always good to rekindle the magic with DH.

But tonight I am back on the grind of studying my little butt off, because hey I only got 15 days left and this test is pretty much an asset I need, who am I kidding, I really need.
Today marks a big day for me, can you guess? by the measurements of my OB/GYN I am in my third trimester. What can a former infertile say? well other then wow, there's nothing much more to say. Sometimes I lay in bed and I think about how I felt this time last year, how far away that was, but how close to my heart that pain remains. Those tears, that pain, I still vision the deals I made with God to get pregnant, my immaturity and my desperation that things should happen on my time ONLY... I pray, all the time, that Babybell is born healthy... and I don't take for granted anything in life, you can't, you never know when you'll have your last kiss, your last pillow fight... you last breath.....

Thursday, June 4, 2009

The Joys Of BabyBell's Kicks

Wait what is this waking me up at 5:00 a.m.??

My daughter's little coordinated kicks.....

Watching my bell move, it's a sight for sore eyes

Oh babybell, your movements are so apperciated and wanted =)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009


One more step towards progress, the test is booked =) You know for the career i'm dyin for.

Now, I have to study for the CYA test... aka my licensing exam for the career I do now, but don't really wanna, you know just in case what i believe is going to happen, happens sooner then expected... aka the layoff....

Wish me luck!

Monday, June 1, 2009


I've been wondering about different religions for a while now. Catholism and Seventh Day Adventist to be exact, Two totally different flips of the coin. I believe that it is WAY overdue that I make a more prominent attempt to do as God told me to. This goes beyond my personal life, but my professional life as well. So come next weekend, I will be attending a church and all week I will be researching that church and religion, I am leaving it to God to show me the way to go..... Something I needed to do a LONG time ago, let go, leave it up to God, and be faithful. I remember when I was an avid church follower, my life was so simple. Money was never an issue, I never worried about my next step, because God protected me =).... So I am very excitied about giving it all up to God again and learning my bible all over again =)

Me and DH kissed and made up, eh, he's my soulmate, I'm pregnant and a little irrational ... what do you

Hey Babybell!

9.15: Born at 9lbs, 1oz, 21.25 inches (90% all the way around)
9.21: 9lbs 1oz, 21 inches (hey did you get
10.14: 10lbs 3oz, 21.25
11.18: 11lbs 3oz, 21.5 inches hey shorty (50%, 60% and 75%)
1.18: 13lbs 4oz, 24.5 inches hey you're tall! (50%, 75%, 75%)

Pregnancy Timeline

1.7 : Positive Pregnancy Test (2 days late for period, approx. 16/17 DPO)
1.14: Beta reveals 12,943 HCG count (at approximately 23 DPO)
1.21: Perfect Measurements, Sweet Heartbeat One Baby Lives Here (59,594.2 HCG, 13.4 progesterone)
2.6: 8w4d perfect measurements again.... 180BPM.... sweet!! got a shytload of blood taken....
2.20: 10w4d, Colposcopy and Biopsy....saw baby through tummy scan. Mommy's big baby and a H/B of 173!!
2.27: Colopscopy is PERFECT!! my cervix is a go!! 199 days to go!
3.4: Baby beating so hard!! 12w2d end of first trimester O/B appointment!!
3.30: 16 weeks appointment, hearbeat of 157!
4.21: hb 151....everything is okay with the little LADY!!
4.27: BabyBell is measuring a whole week ahead, yep, our little lady is a big girl... heartbeat 151-158 =)
5.26: Glucose Testing & 24W1d appointment heartbeat of 153 and totally movin around for the doctor =) I <3 Babybell
6.23: 28w1d appointment, Babybell heartbeat in the 150-160 range, measurements at 29....
7.7: 30w1d appointment, Jayd'z sucha active little girl!! great measurements, great heartbeat, was told to start the initial process of finding a baby doctor and asked about childbirth classes
7.23: 32w3d appointment, heartrate in the 160's, measuring at 32 weeks (on target) but feel defeated because I'm so
8.6: 34w3d appointment, measuring at 35 weeks heartbeat is regulated in the 130's, StrepB testing and cervix check (nothing going on down here yet)!
8.17: 36w appointment, heartbeat in the 140's,StrepB negative, bloodwork completed this day(1cm dialated, 50% effaced)
8.24: growth scan and 37w appointment, 6pounds 14 ounces =), (1cm dialated, 70& effaced), high blood pressure, 120/90 apparently Jayda likes living in and was playin all during the exam h/b 154
8.31: HB perfecto! 1cm/80% (argh) passed on bloodwork and Strep Test
9.8: 2.5 cm/80%... HB is ughhh ok? 120/82..(uh-oh) ummm doctor mentions that next appointment, we'll talk induction, I see a C-section in the future....
9.14: DUE DATE!! 190 lbs, Oh my!!! Blood pressure is 140/90 sent to hospital and was inducted I was having contractions!! (who knew)
9.15: Hey I'm a Mom =)

Pregnancy Gains!!

Prepregnancy Weight: 154
Doctor's Approvided Gain: 25-35lbs (179-189 lbs)

6w2d: 154 lbs
8w2d: 149 lbs
10w2d: 144 lbs
12w: 144 lbs
16w: 144 lbs
17w4d: 143.2 lbs (before any meals)
20w: 149 lbs
24w: 159 lbs (No more junk food for
26w6d: 165 (uh-oh..... okay seriously this time no more junk
28w1d: 165 (SUCCESS IS MINE!! lol)
30w1d: 171 (Blame it on the rice and
32w3d: 175 (but I look like I gained 30
34w3d: 179 (much less then I expected, that's for
37w: 185 (hmmm....????)
38w: 184 (down!)
39w: 185 (up!)
40w: 190 (wtf)

Morning Sickness
6w3d - 7w6d: Moderate
8w - 14w5d: Severe
14w6d - 17w: Moderate
17w1d - present: Mild