To The Little One That Hasn't Exited

Hello my beautiful little girl,

today is the last day of cooking in medical terms, tomorrow is your due date. It's been a ride hasn't it? (insert my tears while writing this) I remember on January 4th, when I saw a spot of red on my toilet paper, it would of marked a year of TTC and many many months of not preventing, I cried inside and I begged God that my period would not start, and guess what? It didn't, nope, it didn't come that Monday or that Tuesday. By Weds I thought the world was playing an evil joke on me. So I went to lunch with my work buddy and stopped at Drug Fair for a pregnancy test. Now baby, I've seen SO MANY negatives, that I was in no rush to POAS, I actually went and did reception. Around 3:30 I got the nerve, I went in the first stall and peed, I watched the stick, IMMEDIATELY there was a line...omg...omg...omg... I said, the test line showed up before the control. I walked in a daze to my office, and wrote your daddy an e-mail, OH GOD!!! we were OVERJOYED I sent him the picture of the pregnancy test! I called Grandma who cried on the phone, and Grandpa and Uncle E, the men they are were cautiously happy. I made an appointment to see the ob/gyn, and on 1/21 (my grandmother's birthday R.I.P) we went to the doctor, and we saw you, we saw our baby, Daddy was so happy that he started calling everyone immediately!! I called Mom and said it's a healthy little baby!! Shortly after you made your presence known, Puking and sleeping and a CRAZY aversion to any poultry (argh)... I was all for the ultrasounds and tests.

No offense little babygirl, but we thought you were a boy. Then, on April 21st, we found out we were having a sweet little girl!!! You made it REALLY clear that you had a vay-jay-jay. As the ultrasound tech moved the wand, you pushed up your privates so they could be in every photo. Oh you silly little girl!!! Daddy and Mommy ran out that weekend and got lilac paint and painted your room, we even put up Tinkerbell boarder.

Pregnancy, thought it was tiring, though I lost ten pounds and gained it plus 30 back. It was worth it, you were the miracle that no one knew was possible.

We have been waiting for you, for two weeks now, and honestly we're getting a little bored with being in the house. Now don't get it confused, mommy and daddy love either other very much, however the bassinet in our bedroom is empty, we need you, we wanna hold you. Grandma and Grandpa keep looking at us longingly, where is their first grandchild!!!

And while I enjoy you moving in my tummy, the selfish act that I get to have with just you and I, I am ready to share you with the world.

So please little momma, don't forget to come out, we promise to make your world filled with love and sunshine. Why? because we loved you before you were even created =)