You Don't Understand!

My little cousin, baby was born today, she's fifteen, this pregnancy was due in part by bad child rendering on her mother's part, as children are sponges and they imitate bad behavior, and part of her wanting to obtain "love" from a little person.... There was ALOT of things she viewed as a young teen, that she shouldn't have been able to, once again, children imitate bad behavior especially when it's plenty to go around.

When the pregnancy was discovered, her parents wanted abortion, the boy's parents said it wasn't his and he has all but disappeared from the face of the earth, I advocated adoption (and still do), and then we found out that she was 19 weeks pregnant, and the parents kinda.. MADE her keep the baby...and shipped her down to a more responsible adult, "more responsible" in their opinion. We were runners up an recieving the teen, but due to the following facts:

1. we lived in the same state as them and the secret would be found out
2. We are church goers, and getting up early on the weekend isn't their cup of tea
we were passed over.... Oh yea, I'm not making this up...

It's difficult to help a new mother understand what is the right thing to do with their child (hey, I know that for a fact), so imagine trying to help a know it all fifteen year old. It got so bad, that "Kelsey" screamed, "Babies are too much work", to my reply of, "Well, this is just day one, Kelsey, what did you expect", Aunt Angie, you don't understand!! Kelsey said, to my reply of "I'm a new mother, I understand, and hopefully soon you will too".

Small Fry...

This morning as I was taking my brother to school, I witnessed a group of kids picking on a smaller child, my heart, broke. I immediately jumped in and stopped the argument, I chasitized the children for doing this to someone, and I asked the young boy if he was okay. His face, okay, it broke my heart. I can not stand, at all, for anyone to be injuried or hurt, when I think of teaching, I think of his helpless face. Children, they can be so cruel, so friggin cruel, education shouldn’t be that way, it should be helpful, not harmful. How can I help those that need me….

Thinking Of Others....

I deleted my post from yesterday, I was very upset that an "anon" reader of my blog would classify me as not being infertile enough. Only god can judge me and so I then realized, perhaps this person is where I was a year ago, bitter, angry and confused, perhaps their only way to cover the pain is to post nasty comments to others they feel are not worthy. and for that, I pity 'anon' and I hope that peace reaches their heart soon.

Please Keep Bonnie and her family In Your Thoughts...

I'm really sad right now.... I'm thinking of Bonnie and her family and my heart is very heavy.

Bonnie is a elegant blog writer, I her blog encouraged me to write my own.

Bonnie, just like us, went through years of infertility, failed IUI's and IVF's..... Her family open their hearts to adoption and the little boy was born on 12/1/2009, however, yesterday afternoon, they recieved bad news....

Please keep her in your thoughts...

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Statistically Screwed

I had a new blog, but the passion just wasn’t there. I found myself writing once and a while, which is odd for me, the advent writer I am. I realized that even though this blog started off as showcasing my battle with infertility and pregnancy afterwards, that it was still a big part of me. Infertility, that is. I can not and should not mask it just because I was given a 4% chance to have a baby and achieved it. I have spent countless hours contemplating what my greatest contribution would be medicine or business, ahh, I am so good with both. So I am back, I am back with a lot on my mind, so take a seat, you may be here for a long while =)