Ohhhh.... Boyyy!!

Okay, I passed the praxis, I don't mean I passed by a little bit, I passed by ALOT... I did EXCELLENT.... OMFG.....I didn't study, I didn't even attempt to know the answers, and let me tell you, I did EXCELLENT......

I told myself totally thinkin I was going to fail, that if I pass this, I would go into teaching.... So here I am, 2 days before my masters education starts and I just found out I passed the praxis...

Just when I think that I got my career idea all STRAIGHTEN out, this happens...

UGH!!!!

WWYD???

I'm Still Pregnant, Don't Worry

Sorry for being M.I.A., however I had nothing much to write. I was so pissed off at my abusive doctor's appointment, ughz, can you believe that a female doctor is ROUGHER then a male doctor, my poor poor lady parts...haha. Anyhow, I was 1cm dilated and 70% effaced on Monday, I was carrying a 6lb 14 oz baby at 37 weeks, imagine her size at 40 weeks if she continues the average of an oz a day, that's like a human....lol..then Wednesday morning my lovely mucus plug came out, oh yea, the whole thing (enter in sheer happiness and panic) I sat all day waiting for contractions, to which I got nadda. Oh boy!! So as I walk around here, for the start of week 3, open and thinned. I must say, I am totally ready for this munchkin to exit...lol

Coat of Honor =)

I got my "coat of honor" today......

an assortment of stretch marks =)

yay!!!!

Hey... Got Something I Wanna Share =)

Of Course!! I know you wanna see belly pictures, how could I make you wait over 35 weeks!!!

We'll go in reverse to how I got so big... So without further ado...

August (to date)

July

June

Hey.... I got something else for you....

Introducting our 28 week 6 day ultrasound =)

What's That...

Laying across the couch this morning, I decided to give out a little stretch....

Well so did Jayda, LOL...

you should of seen my face as I felt her little body expand in my tummy... matter of fact you should of saw my tummy and the new stretch marks that have taken residence.

Overnight...LoL

DH: "What cha doing"
Me: "Packing my overnight bag for the hospital, which outfit do you want Jayd to wear home"
DH: "The pink one that says I love daddy"
Me: "Cool Beans, it's packed"
DH: (confused look... then turns to panic look... then a calm smile)
Me: "What ya doing babe?"
DH: (with shorts and underclothes in hand, he packs it in my bag)
DH: "Cause I'm sleeping over, I wonder what kind of food they'll serve, don't forget my toothbrush and hair gel"

When a daddy can't bare to think the mommy will spend more time with the baby then him, I call that...

- Priceless...lol

Bleeding Heart

I am so upset, tears are filling my eyes... all I can think is, how could a mother do this?

As you may know, my husband's little cousin is 15 and pregnant. She was exposed to some serious incidents during an impressional age. I.E. her 20 something brother was allowed to have his girlfriend live with them, were they partook in drugs, underage alcohol and lots of sex and two pregnancies which noone thought anything of.... Her mother drinks all night and weekend, allows different men to come in and out the house. Basically, there were no morals.

The father of this childs parents want her to get an abortion, now I will set aside my pro-life views on abortion, but honestly you can't abort a 6 month old fetus, that's murder....I've mentioned adoption, to which these people think is in their verbage "stupid"..... UGHHHHSSS I almost kicked their a$$ on that..... Adoption is so beautiful.... so beautiful.... okay, I'll move along.... The father's family want nothing to do with the girl or the baby, and the father is not even speaking to the girl anymore.

So the solution? In order not to, in their words "embrass her more" they are sending her to her sisters 1000 miles away, because yea, that's how they do it, rather save face then step up to the plate.

I am so upset, so hurt, I told my husband, damn it, I want her to stay with us, I want to help her,
Why does my heart bleed? Because you can call me old school, I believe in parents raising their children, I believe in mothers LOVING their daughters. Instead of this lady changing her ways she's decided to ship her daughter off, her daughter needs a mother, not to be shipped off to her sisters.

Typically we visit them on the weekends, but I am so upset with the mother, I have nothing to say, I will be at home, for a very long time, Oddly enough I feel like they let me down and I need healing (Ahhh I'm always a victim) however I will always be their for the young lady, NO MATTER WHAT!

I just pray and hope that I give Jayda a better chance, that I do what's right for my daughter and I help her become a respectable woman. I just hope I am a real mother.

A Daddy's Girl Already

Jayda (yes that's her name) must know daddy comess home today. Everytime I send him a text message,she kicks and moves so happily. I feel arms, I feel legs, she's so happy, which makes me even happier. She loves her daddy so much, it's obvious....

What a blessed family we are =)

Oh, Bright Stars

Today is a big day for me, not only does today mark that within 42 days my daughter will bless the world. I also took a big stand for myself, yes, I took a STAND for myself! I won't describe it in details, but I chose to not give up on myself and I am proceeded forward, nervously, cautiously yet totally okay with what may happen... I'll tell you all shortly.

But let me tell you, my husband is as giddy about my plans as I am!