I've been a bad blogger... sorry.

I've been a bad blogger...sorry.

For the blessing that is my daughter, I feel as thought I owe God more then ever. Our daughter is a miracle, that I really didn't believe that would come.

I realized that you can be so involved in your own "little world" that you can forget about the ones that love you the most, I am dedicating my time with my family and while that may mean missing sleep and changing the way I do things, I realize that life is too short and everyday is precious, If this is the last day on earth, I want it filled with forgiveness, kisses and love, I want to leave knowing that I was a good person and that my soul was clear....

I'm in school now =), no not for teaching. I feel that my purpose is to education, but in a new sense, I'll talk more about it in later months, but yes It's in the health care field and I am very excited.

That's it on my end... =)

Week 27

First off.... Caroline.... CONRADS!!! everyone go give Caroline some love ... well you know before she gets morning sickness =)

It's me, I'm still here, just been quiet, not too much has been going on.

The weight gain.... uh-oh.... but let's be honest i am ALL BELLY... I am on the higher end of the scale, but I always look alot less then my weight, if you saw me today you'd think I'm no more then 140... I carry weight AMAZINGLY....

I took a much needed break from studying this weekend to have our ONLY mini-vacation this weekend, awww always good to rekindle the magic with DH.

But tonight I am back on the grind of studying my little butt off, because hey I only got 15 days left and this test is pretty much an asset I need, who am I kidding, I really need.
Today marks a big day for me, can you guess? by the measurements of my OB/GYN I am in my third trimester. What can a former infertile say? well other then wow, there's nothing much more to say. Sometimes I lay in bed and I think about how I felt this time last year, how far away that was, but how close to my heart that pain remains. Those tears, that pain, I still vision the deals I made with God to get pregnant, my immaturity and my desperation that things should happen on my time ONLY... I pray, all the time, that Babybell is born healthy... and I don't take for granted anything in life, you can't, you never know when you'll have your last kiss, your last pillow fight... you last breath.....

The Joys Of BabyBell's Kicks

Wait what is this waking me up at 5:00 a.m.??

My daughter's little coordinated kicks.....

Watching my bell move, it's a sight for sore eyes

Oh babybell, your movements are so apperciated and wanted =)

Yay!

One more step towards progress, the test is booked =) You know for the career i'm dyin for.

Now, I have to study for the CYA test... aka my licensing exam for the career I do now, but don't really wanna, you know just in case what i believe is going to happen, happens sooner then expected... aka the layoff....

Wish me luck!

Religion....

I've been wondering about different religions for a while now. Catholism and Seventh Day Adventist to be exact, Two totally different flips of the coin. I believe that it is WAY overdue that I make a more prominent attempt to do as God told me to. This goes beyond my personal life, but my professional life as well. So come next weekend, I will be attending a church and all week I will be researching that church and religion, I am leaving it to God to show me the way to go..... Something I needed to do a LONG time ago, let go, leave it up to God, and be faithful. I remember when I was an avid church follower, my life was so simple. Money was never an issue, I never worried about my next step, because God protected me =).... So I am very excitied about giving it all up to God again and learning my bible all over again =)

Me and DH kissed and made up, eh, he's my soulmate, I'm pregnant and a little irrational ... what do you expect...lol