Still Stalkin Blogs....

Just because I don't post doesn't mean I'm not still stalkin blogs....

Melissa and Caroline I'm crossing my fingers that you'll have a BFP in the next few days...

I'm still here, still pregnant...and I'm sporting sucha cute bump... BabyBell is adorable inside the womb... because hey I'm already betting she's adorable outside the womb too (no rush babybell, you gotta lot more cooking to do!) I mean I blush everytime a guy tries to pick me up... As soon as I turn around (and some still don't notice it when I turn around) "I'm like I'm six months pregnant and I'm married"....lol

So today's horoscope said:
Quickie
Just because you've been close to someone forever doesn't mean you truly know them.

And I thought immediately to DH, then I brushed it off as a oh well, it's a friggin horoscope. But... it wasn't.... me and DH are technicially not on speaking terms right now, I'm sure he'd like to speak to me,but he won't dare......he better not dare...I am not a big arguer, so when I ram you in the a**, I ram you in the a** for a reason, I saw something on a social network, that really had me questioning my DH's integrity.... And the discussion that followed my rant, well it didn't help DH either....I won't get into details, it's not cheating or stealing or anything divorce worthy....but I'm really more disgusted then pissed off.... eh.... I guess you never really do know a person....

So in case I don't write again this week.... ttyl =)

Studyin....

I have a licensing quiz next month for my current career, to date I have studied, what a hour or so? As you all know, I'm going back to school (part-time) in January to do a 180 on my career, what I do now, is fun, ......sometimes..... sometimes I'm helping people, sometimes I feel like I've violated any ethic or moral I ever had.... oh they call this business huh? I strive to help people, you know REALLY help people, I rather be doing that 100%, and I need a better work/life balance, I, am pretty much all play no work.... I am taking the licensing quiz, because I officially won't be done with the new career education until 2011, and I'm going to probably want to work in this field another 1 1/2 years - 2 years.... so it kinda makes sense.....but let me tell you, I have ZERO motivation in studying for this..... Now watch, as soon as january rolls in I'm going to go crazy in love with the new education program and beg DH to stay home and just do the program.

Screw Your "Fund"

How about for one minute you get that whole pro-choice crap out your head, see it from a future mother, one that trying naturally for a baby for years,

my baby cells divided at three weeks...
at six week, my baby had a hearbeat.....
at nine weeks, my baby had legs and arms....
at twelve weeks my baby had fingers...

Matter of fact, my baby wiggles and kicks within...

now tell me how the hell you can say my baby isn't a real human???

And you wonder why I won't donate to your fund? Because your fund kills the chance for good people to adopt, your fund kills my kid's future classmates.

Ohhh The Economy Is Bad Huh?

Jobs are zero to none, it didn't really hit me until I did some web surfing. Of course my degree program doesn't start until January, so I can cross my fingers and hope for the best when I try to change careers, but sheesh... I remember three years ago, If I was tired of working, then fine, I just switch jobs, it was that simple, that easy. To get into my new career path, I'm going to need to do HEAVY networking, heavy tutoring, heavy volunteering and make heavy sacrifices... eh.... but it will be worth it in the end. If I go for the program I'm familiar with, I start Jan 2010, with my last semester in Jan 2011, it's going to take a year and a half, but I'll be done a few months before babybell is 2 and my debt won't be crazy high. I also am scheduled for some information sessions this month, which their program will give me a higher degree, but will cost about 3times more.... ouch.....but I would like to pursue a masters, nonetheless, I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

The Graduate Degree

“I’m only doing this for money, it’s not what I want to do, I want a career that will give me more, that will give us more, BabyBell needs a full-time mom, you deserve a full-time wife, not one that works all the time”

I made the decision; I’m sending the transcript….

There’s a lot on my mind lately, tons of it has nothing to do with the present. It has everything to do with being able to push BabyBell in a swing at 4:00 p.m. It has everything to do with, making cookies on snow days and day trips in the summer. It has everything to do with enjoying my mother, It has everything to do with being a full-time wife to my husband, It has everything to do with finishing my crazy schedule by the time BabyBell is two, it has everything to do with giving up what is comfortable, for what is best for those in my life. It’s all about them.

As I sit here and ponder how we will make it financially, I know that we will make it.
Because between my mother and my husband, these comments rang out.

“I’d be so proud if you went to school for that”
“Babe, don’t worry, we’ll make it through”

A Change Of Course

I am pretty young...

"at this age... you have alot of options...."
"you would be excellent as that, perfect"

They're right, I am a vibrant early/mid twenty something and I do in fact, have alot of options. I have time to make a bad decision or two and I am able to play any card I so want......

"But what if you don't like it?"

Why wouldn't I? The two elements involved I love, yes, it will be hard, but think of all the lives I'll reach, think of all the change I can be apart of.

The thought of two more years of school does seem to put me at wits end....

"I thought you wanted to pay down debt for law school"

I rather give my child my life, law school's door isn't closed, it's just unrealistically attainable right now.

"You're entitled to a career"

And my daughter is entitled to a mother, this career will allow us to have it both ways.

"You're going to be giving up alot of income for this"

Where there's a will there's a way, we'll have to cut back, save, I'll work part-time, I'll defer my loans, we'll manage, we'll be okay.

So.... I guess I just answered another question myself.....

Oh Yeah Brooke!!

Brooke is pregnant!!! go over to her blog and show her some love!!!!

God is so good!!!