Pure Emotion

Ultrasound Tech: “If I get the baby to turn, you’ll see three lines”
Me: “Three lines mean a girl, the baby’s a girl”
Ultrasound Tech: “Yes, it’s no question that’s a little lady”

The moment I found out a little girl was rattling my uterus; I’ve been in shock, awe, complete amazement. I wanted a little girl, since sheesh I was a little girl. This seems so real, utterly too real. Up until that point pregnancy was fun it was just a cool vacation from my menstrual period and the bonus effects would be a cute little baby to play with. Now, It’s hit me, I’m going to be a mother. More importantly I am going to be this little girl’s role model. This little girl is going to need me more then ever. With each move of her hand, kick of her legs, and turn, I saw the person that I will dedicated my life to. Well hello there little baby, mommy has waited several years for you. Mommy has cried a lot of tears for you, mommy has peed on a lot of sticks for you, mommy has did b/w, ultrasounds and a HSG for you, mommy and daddy cried themselves to sleep when doctors said we’d never ever get pregnant with you…. Oh baby, how I adore you!!!

It’s all starting to make sense, my whole world is changing and I couldn’t be happier.

Flavor Baby?

Guess what......

ITS A GIRL!!!

And This Is My Momma!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXxOyVHBPwE

Everytime I hear the little boy sing and say "And This Is My Momma" I burst out crying.....lol...I love it!!!

4 Days Before I See Baby

I'm in withdrawal.... I wanna see my baby....

I wanna see their eyes, nose and mouth (FINALLY!!) I also wanna see their little privates so I know what team I'm pitching on =) I ever the impatient, tried to get the ultrasound date changed to today, no luck... there is no earlier appointments.... bummer.... I wanna see my baby!! I wanna see fingers, toes, arms and legs.... I wanna see smiles, frowns and sucking of the thumb....and did I mention I wanna see their privates? lol.... I'm getting real tired of netural colors...

Dayum....is it the 21st yet?

Chilli

Chilli..... that's my claim to fame craving. I spend 7 hours cooking chilli in a crock pot, because my little babybell wanted it bad. Every get waked up and the first thing on your mind is chilli? So yes.... That's my MAJOR CRAVING.... what's yours?

Extra Annoyed....

I'm young, I'm gifted..... I know.

As beautiful as my paycheck looks it doesn't compare to the b/s I have to deal with a certain employee. Who loves to question my actions! I guess it's another show of diversity. However, I am not the sweet pushover anymore and I do get mad.... Oh hyll yes.

With a husband that travels 27 weekdays a year... I didn't plan on continuing my 1.5 hour commute to work after babybell arrives anyway.

Just another reason why I have a:
COUNTDOWN TO MATERNITY LEAVE.

Three Little Random Things

1. For My Co-Workers: I'm all belly, I know. Not a single other area of my body is big. Save your friggin old wives tales. Yes, DH and I both think this baby is a boy. Sure I was a team pink player. Shyt after TTC for 3+ years, I don't care what we get, boy, girl, animal, vegetable..... But that doesn't mean that you can keep saying, "oh you're having a boy cause you're all belly.... It's no way it's a girl, no way". Save your fairy tales, and wait for the ultrasound.

2. Convo with DH aka My Big Baby
DH: (while goggling on his laptop) "Look they got an ultrasound at 17 weeks"
Me: "Oh Cool"
DH: "How come we gotta wait until 19 weeks?"
Me: "Because it's an anatomy scan, not just a gender scan"
DH: "That's not fair"
DH: "I want to get an ultrasound NOW"
Me: "Well sweetie, go ahead, but i don't think they'll see a baby in your tummy"

3. TMI Warning
I used to have a gorgeous body... MEMORIES!!... I was 38-28-38....now I'm like 40-(WTF knows)-34.....My ass hurts guys. It's so sore. Everytime I wake up it's like DH has been kicking me in the ass, and oh yeah, wouldn't pass it by him to do that either...lol...I heard it's normal and I'm suppose to put pillows between my legs and take baths. Oh the irony..... a year of putting a pillow under my ass to get preggo and now 5 months of putting it between my legs for pain relief.

Grrr...

First off....CONGRADS Bmom and Emmy.... welcome to morning sickness...lol

So yeah, what's up with the second trimester QUEEN.

I have driven myself Loco, looking at the foods, they say pregnant women CANT eat.

If I go by this shyt, I'ma be afraid to eat ANYTHING.

Please note I am drastically recovering from non eating for 15 weeks (gotta love that morning/afternoon/evening/night sickness) and those awesome 10 lbs I lost, Oh hellz yea my body was down with the sickness, my body will only tolerate things it likes, like DH's kisses and Tiggers hugs...haha..... I can't take the smell of chicken and eating it make me ill. Therefore I am stuck to seafood, beef, ground turkey and pork. I'm sorry, but I like roast beef, I want a roast beef sandwich. I will have them warm it up and cook it, but I am going to eat it. My little babybell is kicking away at my uterus (pretty cool right, it started at 16w4d), and soon they will anticipate lunch.

They will anticipate a roast beef sandwich with roasted red peppers and sundried tomatoes..... I'm sorry, I can't disappoint them.

ETA: The roast beef was too red for my preference, and even though I felt the happiness and desire the baby had to eat it, I passed. We ended up having a delicious roasted red pepers, mozeralla and tomato wrap minus the roast beef.

Hey, at least we had lunch....and hey look a little kick from babybell to say thank you.

To Each Their Own

I am currently studying for my certification test, which will be taken the end of June. I spend a vast majority of the weekend reading study guides and weeknights reading assessments. I am lucky to have worked in this area for a few years, so there's alot I do know, and ALL of this information is valuable for me. I am also taking an online course to fill the requirements to enter my master's degree program.
All of these will be completed by August 11th. I stop working 2 weeks before deliever and don't go back til December. In January I start my master's program, only one class, but nonetheless I start. My baby will be 4 months then. When I discussed my future plans with my friend at work, she said "How can you do all that?" I looked at her puzzled.
For I worked a full time job, a part time job, lived on my own 100% and took 18 credits in college, I still had plenty of free time to party. She only went to school full time and was flustered still. I am going to be a twentysomething mommy, she is in her late thirties/ early forties and is considering motherhood, but says that it will be too much work, her husband would depend on her to do too much and she isn't where she wants to be in her career. She says maybe in 2 years or so, but probably not cuz it's too much work.
I started wondering am I biting off too much? Working full-time, being a full-time mom and taking one master course? No way.... you want to know why? Because determination = results. If a million people did it before me, a million people will do it after me. If I believe it, it can be done.
Now back to researching programs =)

Convo with Husband

DH: "The baby has a big head huh, hi baby!"
Me: "What?"
DH: "It's a boy, see the penis"


Look at my pregnancy timeline icon on the left.

Can someone please tell my husband the following:

1. This is a pregnancy timeline and not our actual baby
2. That is not a penis, it's an umblical cord

20 days until we find out what our chipmunk is!