Can't I Just Be Sick?

I had a headache yesterday, a fucked up one. It started Sunday evening and lasted until 1:00 a.m. this morning (I feel fab now)....I came to work for two hours yesterday and asked my boss if I could leave, apparently, the grapevine started...one of my close coworkers knows I'm expecting... she told me that a few people asked her if I was.... (nosey people)

Dude, can't I just be sick one day? Headaches are common for me, very common... and pregnancy makes it worst.... oh yeah, I'm pregnant ....lol....almost 4 months and my body is okay, I'll admit OUTSTANDING, I fit ALL my pre-pregnancy clothes, shyt even better then I did pre-pregnancy...

Anyhow, I totally got an award a while back see it posted, thanks Melissa!!

One Click...

I am starting the process of evolution.... in just one click. September is going to be life changing, so will June..... the career change is going to be different...and next January will be the start of a dream, a dream to help others. I am excitied about what the future holds for me.

I just started the process .... one click .... registration completed.....

The Little OverAchiever...

I want it all, I was raised to be the best.

I am the classic example of an overachiever, I am pursing my PHR, joining my local SHRM chapter, taking winter classes for psychology and applying to graduate school in the fall of 2010 for Educational Psychology. I intend to use my PHR to apply for a generalist position in Late October/ November and start on December 1st of this year. The economy does not scare me, I am an OVERACHIEVER.... I do what I gotta do.
I really want to be home with babybell until he's (yea, I have a weird way of referring to this baby as a he, during ttc sex I said Oh a little boy, and since that's the month I got pregnant, the thought stuck with me) eh.... we won't know until 4/21, I'm pretty team Green, I'm just EXCITED someone lives in here. Anyway, to stay on topic I wanted to stay home with babybell until they were 12 weeks, so babybell, come on your due date! but no earlier then a week before! and not later!.....

I intend to be a kick ass career mommy.... which is why we choose to have a bambino or bambina early. While our careers are still fresh and less demanding....

So that's all from the little overachiever....

13 Weeks 1 Day

The first thing I touch in the morning is you while you float in my tummy....

I touch you during breakfast....

During lunch....

During dinner.....

DH touches you before we go to sleep....

You are such a wanted baby, you are so lucky.

Everything we do is so that you can have a better future, now as we enter the second trimester, we have picked your potential names.... even before we've know your sex.... you are our precious baby, our gift from God. You are what miracles are made of, you are the 4% of hope we've dreamed of.....

Every tear we cried so far, worth it. 8 weeks of morning sickness, worth it. This is the beginning of bliss....

Can't wait to change your pamper in September!!!

If She Only Knew....

If she only knew that I am an infertility advocate...


The lady at work has had two miscarriages, this is her third. She is crying, I offered to speak to her, however she declined.

Lord knows I can help her.... Lord knows I could. But I can not pressure her to open up to me, I just can't.

One Is Enough...

It annoys me, alot... when people ask me how many children I want. As if I am allowed to determine how many children I can have. Did they forget about the whole God factor? It took us, what 3 years for one? Let's get real.

I am realistic and I am greateful for this MIRACLE and yes it pisses me off which you say having one child is selfish. Okay ... WTF? Strangers and those who do not know the TTC struggle, do not, I repeat do not, tell me what is selfish, what is fair and how miserable my only child will be.

So just to see my ability to deal with multiple children for more then 2 hours, DH and I had our nieces and nephews over, yes 3 kids. Can I just say one thing.... OMFG.

As I sit in my soon to be baby's room, I breathe ez, I smile. One is enough... One is more then enough....