All about my chubby tummy =)

A Semi-Weight goal is a weight that may just be a healthy and maintainable weight for you or you may still need to lose 5-10 more pounds, but you won't know which one it is until you get to your weight. My Semi-Weight loss goal is 145lbs, I remember being that weight before and it was okay, and my clothes fit good, but not awesome and if my memory serves me right, I was trying to diet back then. So with that being said, my lifetime goal is 135 lbs, because for the majority of my lifetime, I've always thought that was a great weight for my bone structure and awesome curves.
In other weight news, I have the beginnings of a waist. YAYY!! yes, you can see a beautiful waist forming and I am looking more hourglass then apple, I can't remember ever having a waist, and even though it's on top of a fat tummy, my waist looks great...lol

Hey I Figured Out My Password

It's been a long time.

I am around and I have constantly thought about blogging, but somewhere in life I forgot. As I read my past blog posts, I am a tad bit discouraged to see that I've ventured pretty much nowhere from where I wanted to be, but a tad bit okay with that, that I can see I've matured and yet, have not lost myself. For me, that's important. There's alot to discuss, a lot to talk about, but I won't be going anywhere anytime soon so I have time to collect my thoughts =)

looking forward to it too.

I'm Around...

At times I'm known to vanish, it's been difficult adjusting to the parent/wife/executive/graduate student thing. Just when I think I have it together, it explodes. Today, well right now is a good day. Losing weight is a struggle in itself, as after a baby, well in my case, you hormones shifted and losing weight fast is a think of the past, now mine you, I am only 25 lbs from goal weight, but that's after strategic meal planning and working out, and frankly, I don't have the time with a HIGH energy newborn to do too much. I've been focusing on her and slide in my free time here and there, I mean, she's the love of my life, she didn't ask to be here, so she comes first. Having a traveling husband doesn't help either, because I feel like I need to "overcompensate". Urghs... but that's another story, for another blog title.

So what did I miss while I was gone?

Fat Actress

I am approximately 35 pounds over my ideal weight, I am 16 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight, and I can not fit any of my clothing, argh!! Please note I have a VERY expensive line of clothing and I can not afford to buy more clothing,I have to go on a low carb/ low fat diet and work out 1 hour on the treadmill 5 times a week, weight lift 3 times a week, and ab workouts every other day of approximately 500 reps.

In order to be at goal by December 31, 2010.... ARGHS!

<---To the gym I go =(

You Don't Understand!

My little cousin, baby was born today, she's fifteen, this pregnancy was due in part by bad child rendering on her mother's part, as children are sponges and they imitate bad behavior, and part of her wanting to obtain "love" from a little person.... There was ALOT of things she viewed as a young teen, that she shouldn't have been able to, once again, children imitate bad behavior especially when it's plenty to go around.

When the pregnancy was discovered, her parents wanted abortion, the boy's parents said it wasn't his and he has all but disappeared from the face of the earth, I advocated adoption (and still do), and then we found out that she was 19 weeks pregnant, and the parents kinda.. MADE her keep the baby...and shipped her down to a more responsible adult, "more responsible" in their opinion. We were runners up an recieving the teen, but due to the following facts:

1. we lived in the same state as them and the secret would be found out
2. We are church goers, and getting up early on the weekend isn't their cup of tea
we were passed over.... Oh yea, I'm not making this up...

It's difficult to help a new mother understand what is the right thing to do with their child (hey, I know that for a fact), so imagine trying to help a know it all fifteen year old. It got so bad, that "Kelsey" screamed, "Babies are too much work", to my reply of, "Well, this is just day one, Kelsey, what did you expect", Aunt Angie, you don't understand!! Kelsey said, to my reply of "I'm a new mother, I understand, and hopefully soon you will too".

Small Fry...

This morning as I was taking my brother to school, I witnessed a group of kids picking on a smaller child, my heart, broke. I immediately jumped in and stopped the argument, I chasitized the children for doing this to someone, and I asked the young boy if he was okay. His face, okay, it broke my heart. I can not stand, at all, for anyone to be injuried or hurt, when I think of teaching, I think of his helpless face. Children, they can be so cruel, so friggin cruel, education shouldn’t be that way, it should be helpful, not harmful. How can I help those that need me….

Thinking Of Others....

I deleted my post from yesterday, I was very upset that an "anon" reader of my blog would classify me as not being infertile enough. Only god can judge me and so I then realized, perhaps this person is where I was a year ago, bitter, angry and confused, perhaps their only way to cover the pain is to post nasty comments to others they feel are not worthy. and for that, I pity 'anon' and I hope that peace reaches their heart soon.